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(4 zliened | are you from earth?) [16 Jun 2006|07:41am] i'm still looking for a summer job. ack. appearances matter that much? i know. that's just the way it goes? no, i can't say that. never. well i'll keep applying, and i will probably find one to work for at least a month or so. it's already mid-june. i go back to school mid-august. time goes. by this time any previous summer, i'd be angry i had two months left until school. i still long to return to guilford and in a way wish it weren't my last year this year. but i like myself enough now to enjoy the time with myself. summer is good.

(are you from earth?) [14 Jun 2006|06:25am] quiz. i didn't answer all these questions. http://junk.alanv.org/ljquiz.php. 1) Would you wrestle its_me_yall in jello? I can't imagine in what circumstances that would occur, but I wouldn't rule it out. 3) Is margeaux_lekter introverted or extroverted? I don't know her in real life, but I would make a guess and say introverted. 5) Where was irou_2_spill born? Germany, Alaska. Or so his Facebook profile would have one believe. 8) Does candyismandy go to your school? She used to. 10) Are irou_2_spill and oh_alacrity married? Yes, but only when they're in Germany, Alaska. No, they're not even together. 12) Thoughts on wolfyknight? *HUG* 14) Is hygd your best friend? One of them. 19) What color should foobix_kyoobe dye their hair? Purple with yellow stripes. 20) How would jackasinine conquer the world? I don't think he would decide to conquer the world, but if he did, I imagine his revolution would go unnoticed until the last minute when his final battle would take the form of a chess game.

(3 zliened | are you from earth?) [10 Jun 2006|10:28am] i look at the world and think: if i ever call our time in history "the good old days", either mourn for the passing of my soul or the passing of the world's soul.

(1 zliened | are you from earth?) [09 Jun 2006|10:31am] I found this interesting. One of my Myspace friends posted the following in a bulletin: Ronald Reagan - divorced the mother of two of his children to marry Nancy Reagan, who bore him a daughter only 7 months after the marriage. Bob Dole - divorced the mother of his child, who had nursed him through the long recovery from his war wounds. Newt Gingrich - divorced his wife who was dying of cancer. Dick Armey - House Majority Leader - divorced Sen. Phil Gramm of Texas - divorced Gov. John Engler of Michigan - divorced Gov. Pete Wilson of California - divorced George Will - divorced Sen. Lauch Faircloth - divorced Rush Limbaugh - Rush and his current wife Marta have six marriages and four divorces between them. Rep. Bob Barr of Georgia - Barr, not yet 50 years old, has been married three times. Barr had the audacity to author and push the "Defense of Marriage Act." The current joke making the rounds on Capitol Hill is "Bob Barr...WHICH marriage are you defending?!? Sen. Alfonse D'Amato of New York - divorced Sen. John Warner of Virginia - divorced (once married to Liz Taylor.) Gov. George Allen of Virginia - divorced Henry Kissinger - divorced Rep. Helen Chenoweth of Idaho - divorced Sen. John McCain of Arizonia - divorced Rep. John Kasich of Ohio - divorced Rep. Susan Molinari of New York - Republican National Convention Keynote Speaker - divorced So... homosexuals are going to destroy the institution of marriage? Wait a minute, it seems the Christian Heterosexual Republicans are doing a fine job without anyone's help! If you agree, like I do, that hypocricy and bigotry must end, repost this.

(are you from earth?) [08 Jun 2006|08:16pm] [ mood | blank ] I'm bored enough to be posting just to use my Bob Dylan icon I so miss using? Apparently.

(3 zliened | are you from earth?) [08 Jun 2006|07:47pm] Jeremy responded to my comment on his posting of this: Leave me a comment and... 1. I'll respond with something random about you 2. I'll challenge you to try something 3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you 4. I'll tell you something I like about you 5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you 6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of 7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you 8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your LJ

(1 zliened | are you from earth?) [07 Jun 2006|05:15pm] THIS WORLD IS SOUL-DEADENING.

(are you from earth?) [21 May 2006|07:54pm] [ mood | nauseated ] ( Uwharrie National Forest stands to lose 2000+ acres. Geologists believe the Uwharries are the remnants of a chain of volcanoes that were once 20,000 feet tall. )

(3 zliened | are you from earth?) [14 May 2006|11:19am] my parents say they're joining the class-action suit that's going on in response to verizon, at&t, and bellsouth turning all their cell phone records over to the government. we've been verizon users for years. my fingers keep wanting to type verizion instead of verizon. guilford's bannerweb still says i have the honors scholarship. i guess they haven't updated it. maybe the financial aid office will be nice to me like they were the first time i lost the scholarship and give me an aid package that makes up the difference. otherwise i'll take out a loan, probably through sallie mae. (they're who my parents have used for loans, but my parents don't have the credit now to take out another loan; i hate how no one will hire my dad just because he's 63, maybe he's near retirement age but he's not planning to retire!) i think i'll find out in june. that's when they usually do billing. hell, at least my gpa is still good enough to get me the reduction on what i have to pay back on my GOAL loan at graduation. i've been reading a book called feed by m.t. anderson. i picked it up at the library when i decided to browse the young adult shelves and thought it was going to be laurie halse anderson who wrote speak. this book sounded very interesting, though, and whoever wrote the text inside the jacket compared the author to bradbury and vonnegut. in it, 73% of americans have a "feed", a chip in their heads that transmits specialized marketing to them from corporations and lets them know the trends. the main characters are a group of teenagers, one of whom has decided to fight the feed. i've read a little more than half the book. it's about to get really interesting, i think. i'll probably finish it in one swoop this evening. i think this weekend i'll finally unpack and clean my room. we found a flea on judylee's head last night, so we need to vaccuum. eek. at least there aren't 50 fleas on her head like last summer! we couldn't get the last of those fleas off her head until this spring. it was terrible.

(4 zliened | are you from earth?) [09 May 2006|03:03am] Hi, Dylan, This is the time of year when some people are hard to get a hold of, so I am still gathering information about your "case". I know that the waiting and uncertainty can be very stressful. Meanwhile, one thing to reflect on is that this will be at least the 2nd consecutive year that your end-of-year, cumulative GPA has been below the stated requirements for keeping the scholarship. Anything that you can say in favor of your case, and that I can show to others, would be appreciated (by me)! I understand that you aren't in it just for the grades; you're in it for the learning. That's great, but everybody says that, and it's precisely the sort of thing that one would expect to hear in these circumstances. So, although that might be something that you want to say, I would encourage you to try to find other, perhaps less cliched ways to support your keeping the scholarship. (No other merit-based scholarships at Guilford have any sort of probationary period, for example...) Vance Vance-- Here goes. Use anything I say in this e-mail that you think would help. High school came far from preparing me for college. High school classes, even my AP classes, felt like a joke in terms of difficulty level. These classes did not prepare me for the challenging nature of college classes, even though these classes also left me hungering for the challenge. I'd say my first year was a year of adjustment, not only in terms of the academic challenge but also in terms of finally having a social life. In high school, I did not have a social life, at all. After school, I volunteered and then went home. My second year of college, I found myself far more prepared for the challenge of my classes and far more adept at expressing myself in writing than I had been the year before; but I still found myself with time-management and insomnia issues on which I've made significant improvements throughout my time at Guilford. More and more I've been able to balance my time so that I can put the kind of energy into work that I would hope to put. Even if the subject matter of a course is not subject matter with which I'm particularly fascinated, I still find that I get quite passionately into the work and the ideas involved. I've had to struggle with not letting myself throw too much time into the assignments that draw the most of my passion such that I don't have time for other assignments about which I am also passionate. No class I've taken has been met with any lack of interest or effort on my part. I have not slacked off in any way. In the fall semester of the year just finished, I found I was able to manage my time much more effectively. This was the semester in which I regained the scholarship. Before this semester I had been raising my cumulative GPA with each semester (except for remaining at a 2.97 from fall to spring my second year). In the spring, the semester just completed, I feel I would have had far less difficulty grade-wise had I not chosen to write the articles I felt driven to write. These articles, I strongly felt and feel, were a way in which I could contribute deeply to the life of the college itself, even if that meant temporarily for a few weeks diverting energy away from my classes. I wrote these articles because in all my time at Guilford I have heard some people -- students, faculty, staff -- complain of an "image change". I heard people talk to each other in small conversations, but I did not hear a larger discussion among the entire community. I wanted to trigger that larger discussion. I regret that these articles ultimately meant I did not do as well in my classes as I would've liked, but I do not regret writing them and I do not regret spending the time on them I did. I would not have wanted to "half-ass" these articles; it would not have been fair to Guilford. And I love Guilford too much to shortchange it like that. My time at Guilford has been an amazing time of personal growth. I have internalized many Quaker principles, particularly those of direct access to God/truth and simplicity (in terms of inner truth being more valuable than outward appearances). Also I feel I have become a lot more able to see where people are coming from when I disagree with them. I value Guilford and I value my time at Guilford. The Guilford experience has changed my life and it has changed me. I want nothing more than to finish my college career at Guilford. My family cannot support the funding of my final year. I will have to work this summer and fund it myself. If I do lose the scholarship, I will do what I have to do to make next year happen for me. Guilford, learning, my classes, and my growth as an individual have been at the core of my focus for the last three years; and my focus will not shift. This past semester, even if my grades paint me in an ill fashion, I made real lasting progress with time-management and sleep issues. I got through finals without falling apart mentally and emotionally for the first time, because I dealt with my sleep issues (only pulling one all-nighter in the last month) and I managed time between multiple assignments better than ever. I feel prepared for next semester in a way that I never have. I want the chance to show my growth.

(are you from earth?) [04 May 2006|08:22am] I WILL NEVER BELIEVE IN ATTENDANCE POLICIES that give you a C+ in a class in which you've missed three or four days all semester and have made a B+ on two assignments and an A- on all other assignments.

(3 zliened | are you from earth?) [29 Apr 2006|08:20pm] losing steam losing steam fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff fjd;jasfjads write 10-15 pages & answer a 4-part intense take-home test for infinity undecidability & noncomputablity in 48 hours okay??????//////////!!! i don't know. i didn't procrastinate. not this time. but i'm still in a mess as if i did. i'll get through this and then i can let the stream of consciousness FLOW like it's been fucking needing to for fucking weeks. this needs be over this two day ahead thing over the hill i need to do the work my head hurts hurts

(are you from earth?) [22 Apr 2006|10:29am] if any of you've been friended by seahorsememory, don't be too confused. it's me. i'm gonna keep both journals, using that one when it feels i must use that instead of this. ( if anyone would please go behind the cut and give me feedback on this short story, i'd appreciate it greatly. )

(1 zliened | are you from earth?) [12 Apr 2006|10:25am] Freewill Astrology for week of 4/12/06 PISCES (Feb. 19-March 20): Here are your words of power for the coming week, Pisces: *finagle, serendipitous, tinker, adlib, revise, crafty, balance, rectify.* I urge you to carry out actions that embody the spirit of all those terms. Once you do, I believe you'll be in perfect alignment with the cosmic forces coming to bear on you, and will therefore have prevailed upon those cosmic forces to provide you with the metaphorical equivalent of a skeleton key, universal password, or Swiss army knife. This horoscope resonates with my energies today. I'm feeling inspired. I met Barton Parks yesterday. He's a JPS (Justice & Policy Studies) professor at Guilford who teaches courses on community-building and trust in communities. Emily Place is currently taking his course called Trust & Violence, and, from hearing her excited ravings about how wonderful she finds him and his teaching style, I find myself majorly intrigued. Evidently he's somewhat of an anarchist and styles his courses in a way that puts him in just as much a learning role as any of his students. He doesn't lead the class discussion, he participates. Sounds really interesting to me. Unfortunately I probably won't get to take a class with him, though. His course Community-Building Fundamentals this fall will be at the same time as Informal Logic (which it appears will be the only logic course offered next year, and since taking a logic course is a philosophy major requirement I have to take Informal), and he may be retiring after the fall semester. I'm glad I met him, then, and I'm excited that he says I can e-mail him the paper from my Dubois class on the educational system (the one I never finished but hope to finish one day) and he will send me his comments and suggestions when he has a chance.

(2 zliened | are you from earth?) [11 Apr 2006|08:50pm] Dylan, Thank you for your interest in the position. However, I have hired another student. I wish you great success and appreciate having met with you. Melissa Daniel Director, Academic Skills Center Guilford College 336.316.2200 http://www.guilford.edu/asc "You are not here merely to make a living. You are here in order to enable the world to live more amply, with greater vision, with a finer spirit of hope and achievement. You are here to enrich the world, and you impoverish yourself if you forget the errand." ~Woodrow Wilson

(are you from earth?) [24 Feb 2006|05:43pm] i got my car back today. apparently someone had poked a hole in my transmission filter with a pair of pliers. ridiculous. but it was really cheap to fix. then i went to get gas. and i left my wallet sitting on top of my trunk when i drove off. i'm never forgetful like that with my wallet, but i was today. it was lost only for about an hour, though. someone who lives across the street from the gas station turned it in, everything there except the $30.

(are you from earth?) [07 Feb 2006|01:35pm] i thought i'd lost my umbrella, but i found it in the caf. it had just been laying in there for a week, i guess. tuesdays are always nice-weather days when i have to go spend two or three hours in botany lab. headache.

(6 zliened | are you from earth?) [26 Jan 2006|05:37pm] i haven't been writing. i haven't been writing. i have been writing. i wrote a short story last night for fiction workshop today. ( i'm going to have to ask you to leave the premises ) i spoke in class in infinity & non-computability today, for the first time this semester. i wish i had felt ready to speak before, because it is fun to participate in that class i saw today. this isn't much of an entry. things are good. huge. overwhelming. but in good ways. very good ways. excited about some upcoming assignments and image change article which i'm getting in this sunday and many things. there will be more when the writing is

(1 zliened | are you from earth?) [02 Jan 2006|03:26pm] 2005 felt like the first new year ever. two days before 2005 began i felt some crazy shifting going on afoot. 2006 feels like nothing. hmmmm. well, i'm almost ready to write a draft of the image change article. i've got all but one interview compiled. and i'm getting a copy of the full strategic long-range plan tomorrow. arrrrr. why does my brain like to wave the black hole of anxioushite in my face like a treat? off and on for the last couple days this has been the case. at least i'm not in the hole this time.

(are you from earth?) [01 Jan 2006|08:13pm] This is the incomplete version of a paper I handed in for my DuBois class as I handed it in (haven't had a chance to work on it more, but I plan to finish it on my own time). Anyone who has feedback, I would appreciate it. Go behind the cut to read. It's already very long. ( your dollar is dependable, what more can we say? )

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